So I have my first official doctors appt on Sept 2nd. I can't wait. I wish I could go sooner! I don't know if I will like the doctor. I picked this place only b/c it is on my insurance and b/c it is only 5 mins up the road from my work. I figure that will be the most convenient. It is a group practice, which I am fine with. There are so few private practices anymore anyway. At least with a group, I will meet all the doctors at least once so I don't have to worry about some stranger delivering my baby if my private practice doc gets sick or in on vacation, etc. I still think I like the idea of a midwife, but I need to learn a little more as I have no desire for natural child birth! I know very few things, but I know I was the epidural as soon as humanly possible. Actually if they can give it to me at 8 months, that would probably be good. Give me a month to get used to the feeling of being numb down below. Yes, yes, I know epidurals could end up making me paralyzed. But I am going to take that chance over feeling my vag split open. But that's just me. I also know I want to breastfeed. Even though I am very worried about getting orangutan titties. I am alread extremely flat chested, but at least there is a little perk to them. I have seen what happens to your nipples, oh my god, I didn't know they could get so big, it scares me actually. But when the milk is gone, those things are going to fizzles like a 3 day old party balloon. Uh oh. I don't even want to breast feed b/c I believe it's that much better for my baby, I want to breast feed b/c it is hella cheaper and burns a ton of calories. Materialistic and Superficial, yes, but that's how I feel about that :) In fact I almost think I would prefer a c-section. But I won't go there unless I have to. So, I know what I want already on some things. I am seeing a woman doc for my first visit and we have the same first name. Sounds like a good sign to me.
